Penelope’s/Pen sister Tabitha had committed suicide a year ago and Pen’s life has become a mess. Pen is hooked on the now illegal drug Fix which was the same thing her sister had been on. Fix was once an FDA approved drug as an antidepressant but was now illegal and very dangerous. Pen does anything she can to not have to deal with her feelings especially about her sister. Pen knows she needs to get away from Fix but it gives you such realistic hallucinations. Pen’s hallucinations seem to control her. Nate was a man Pen seen when she was high on Fix and she didn’t want to lose Nate he seemed to be the only one who cared about her and her future. Pen really cares about Nate even if he isn’t real. Fix changes how Pen thinks and feels but there are some really bad side effects also but Pen still keeps going back for more. Since her sister and father death her mother seemed to be gone somewhere else mentally. Rose and Pen have done Fix together for the last year. As Pen thinks about getting off Fix Nate tells Pen he loves her. But Nate really isn’t a hallucination he is a ghost. Walker cares about Pen he just doesn’t know how to break through to her and let her know how he feels about her. Then a girl from school ends up missing after a Fix trip. Pen realizes she could really be in danger.
I had mixed feelings about this book. Some things i liked and some not so much. I did like reading this for the most part. I liked the plot and how the author portrayed Pen and her addiction. This was mostly about Pen when she was high on Fix and her hallucinations or when she suffered from the side effects. I thought Pen was basically selfish and unreliable but then again that is how addicts really are so that was realistic. This did seem to pop up with no warning. This was a quick read. I liked Nate was a ghost and added a paranormal aspect to this book. But it was hard to know what was real and what wasn’t. I did have some trouble connecting with Pen. I feel Nate stood in between Pen and Walker’s relationship. I would have liked to seen Pen stand up to Rose and her controlling ways. As I said I had mixed feelings on this book.